long time
its been a while since ive written…..been so busy with studying and going to jb n all…..anyway ive been re-reading god of small things by arundhati roy and it just broke my heart to read it again.as a mom i could never imagine seperating from my kids.i think i would die if that ever happens.just like when tiger died.i still cry when i think of him…its been about a month or so but i still feel him especially at night,soft fur against my legs….i miss cuddling him so much..it breaks my heart when i think of him.i cant even mention his name.i dont nowadays anyway.i cant.its too painful.he died terribly.he didnt deserve it at all.which is why i wonder why i had kids in the first place.i wouldnt know how it would be like if anything went wrong with them.its a big cruel world out there and theres only so much a parent can do to protect his or her child.its scary.i try not to think of it but it scares me when i do.i can only pray to God to keep them from harm and do the best that i can.as for my baby tiger….the wound in my heart will never heal coz i miss him terribly just like i miss apom and bruno and dol,cats who have stolen pieces of my heart.i miss them too so much but they are all gone.
